Determination

It's amazing how one persons success and detemination can spark the fire of progress into your mind again.
So long i have been struggling to get over my own issues and although i am a long way from the finish line...
I am also aware of how far i have come with them.

For the past year i have been rebuilding my confidence, and trying to make sense of many corners of my mind. There are still some that are darker than ever.. but light has started to shine on the areas that were likely to become my demise.

While my body has been recovering, my mind had gone into hibernation and all of my passions and loves became replaced with alcohol and pruging. Well it may be winter outside but my mind and motivation is the most awake and focused it has been for a long time.
It would be selfish to sit there and find comfort in the fact that i am alive and healthier, when there are so many other people out there suffering.
What most people don't realise is that admitting you are in the midst of a condition that you cannot control... is terrifying.  The original aspect of most disorders is to gain control over something in your life... Irony slapping you with the echo of your hollow cheekbones.

I'm gaining control, and i'm gaining self respect again so that i can show so many other girls that they owe that to themselves.
I know one day i will accept myself for the way i look, and it may take a long journey to get to that point but if in the road to self assurance i can stop and help others on board, then we are more likely to reach our goal.

There is a point to my life, and i think i just found it.