So lost. Why is it that things can turn so impatiently ugly when we start to feel the most content in our lives? Is it punishment? For feeling like we deserve the breath of adoration that we gasp. Holding onto a moment tightly because we know it is too good to last forever.... and as I open my eyes with my exhale, it is gone.
How can you love someone with your body and soul but not trust the promises that escape their lips?
I wish I could. I did once, I was content.. and for the first time in forever, I felt unconditionally immersed in someone's love.
But it is true to say, that what goes up must come down. A penance for going through privacy in the hopes of finding reassurance, self assurance, a picture that prooves you wrong.
But all you find is a million reasons why you were right.
Obsessed with the past, oblivious to the present. Oblivious to how my heart breaks every time. I can't believe you can't hear it.. The noise is deafening to me. A frequency that empties my heart in a split second
They say that if they wanted something else instead, they would seek it. But what if the truth is that they would seek only to find rejection so must settle with a mediocre love instead.
Do I contest? And risk losing the life I have built for not conceeding runner up?
Or do I sit and smile, the mona Lisa of our romance.. Finding comfort in the fact that you do love me
Even if it is not as much as you dream you would love her.
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